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Last Pint in England

By

John Murray

World Trade Centre

 

I ate a meal once in mid-air, boeuf mignon

 and fiddle-neck ferns. The wine was good,

 something Californian, velvety red. On

the menu was a request that one should

not smoke, the blackest joke, it now appears.

 

We rose so fast, a hundred stories in a flash

of time and gazed upon the Hudson. The Crash

 took place just round the corner, 1929, tears

 and cursing, then the awful fall into space,

 no message for the wives they could not face,

 eerily pre-echoing the dying leaps of their

successors in the broking game, that September

 day when the elevators stopped forever.

 

I try to pinpoint where I sat and drank my red

unaware of fate written into the walls

 and of those dying falls

and of the unborn soldiers lately dead.

 

 

After love

 

After all the years a point is reached

when every aspect of the personality

has been drawn out, exposed and leached

till all that’s left is dull banality,

 a skeleton of all one once revered,

beguiling layers stripped away,

 the sour residual face of love teared

 and lined with loathing. What to say

to irrigate the barren landscape of remaining

 years, to freshen deserts of despair

 stretching far ahead? Explaining

 nothing, reaching out with care,

seeking adulations new, fresh ground,

 an unpredictable response, a mind

 unknown, a gentler softer being found

 to love and love refind.

 

 

My Life

 

My life will end the day you go,

whether in the silent snow

 of winter or in the birthing Spring,

 the day you cease to bring

 your love my life will end.

 

My life will end the day you go,

whether as the summer flowers grow

 or in the autumn fall

there will be nothing if you do not call

 my name, my dearest friend.

 

My life will end the day you go,

 whether as the winds of sorrow blow

 or as the Reaper swings his scythe,

 I shall remember our days of blithe

 happiness and will pretend

 you there.

Sunny day for war

 

Was it a sunny day when the bomb

dropped on Hiroshima? The Somme

was mired in mud, in flood

as thousands felt their last sensation,

hammer pain then cancellation

of their strife, no life.

 

What was on the wireless in Japan

that morning as the blinding light began

and screams were not in dreams?

 

A mother feeds her goats in Troy

while Grecians spear her darling boy

in fields of hay not far away.

 

A suicidal deafening blast

disturbs the businessman’s repast

in sunny Palestine, fine wines

at hand, he doesn’t know

his son will never grow

to be a man. Bombs and mines

as the harsh sun shines.

 

He watches them go, the burning sun,

he bides his time, sees them leave,

returning daily, checking survivors, who has run

their course and who remains to grieve.

 

 

 

Futility

 

No use in wondering why the grass is green

 in Spring. Just stretch yourself and lie there.

 

Or why the sky is high and blue between

the cloudy spells. Just rest and stare.

 

Just swim, your mind far out, sifting through

 your schemes, those never-ending dreams;

 the thoughts float downwards from the blue

 leading to indeterminate conclusions. Seems

 to make no difference how you plot to cheat

 your fate, friends still fail and sadly die,

 happy moments frozen in the mind, no repeat

 permitted. Just gaze at the wordless sky,

there is nothing to be said.

They are dead.

 

Futility bears down, a pall of unbearable weight

 burying our hopes . We can only wait,

 impotently fearful. Tearful.

 

 

50 elegiac rhyming poems describing love, anxiety and death.

 

Published by Pen Press, 2006, in hardback with sketches and paintings by the author and local artists in France.

 

Michael Weigall, prize-winning broadcaster writes ‘from roadside flowers to the World Trade centre, from friendship lost to one-night stands, Murray in this remarkable collection bares his soul as few have done in public, even on television. He takes us on an extraordinary journey across the peaks and chasms of love, remorse, nostalgia and preparation for death. I’m not usually one for poetry but frankly I was enthralled’